yay! who likes to fight? apparently I do. I apparently love it. I feel like I have spent the majority of my life fighting.... maybe I am one of those people who seek chaos.... maybe I can't function without it.....
yeah
sure
that's
it....
I love the chaos of being a kid who didn't get along with her mother....
or anyone really.......
I went through two boyfriends in high school.....
neither of which ended very well....
I always credited it to the stupidity of being an adolescent and immaturity of being in highschool. But now I know that is wrong.....
now I know that it is because I love chaos
on to my husband......
well when we were dating I was on cloud nine....
when we were dating I don't think we had any problems....
wait... I take it back.... I got mad at him when he didn't walk
me to the door of the apartment after a date one night............
I wondered if I finally found a moment of peace in the life of chaos that I knew
(((and apparently loved)))
But no I in fact had not.... our marriage began in chaos... Chaos of getting married before our wedding.... so that we could get me tested for a serious sleeping disorder...... 10 points to anyone who can guess which one!!!!!!!!!
an thus goes the life.....
diagnosed with Narcolepsy w/ Cataplexy
found out we were expecting
death in B's family
actual wedding
dad diagnosed with parkinson's, death of an uncle in B's family, death of B's grandfather, fighting about anything and everything, sicknesses- mine and his, family dynamics>>> of the in-law rather out law nature, death of my father>> yes even that was a fight, second pregnancy, inability to continue working for my then employer
>>> due to...............
yes! you guessed it ......
..... narcolepsy!!!!!!
then of course having that precious second child, the first one starting school, the un- official and un-predictable aspect of working for yourself, a hail storm, my gosh I don't even want to type out any more things....
Let's just leave it be...
the point is, all in all my whole life has been chaos....
setting aside the sarcasm I oozed all over the top of this post I do end up wondering.... wondering what on earth I must be doing to attract the chaos. What choice do I have but to believe that something must be up with me in order to bring upon myself all of this nonsense...
yeah
sure
that's
it....
I love the chaos of being a kid who didn't get along with her mother....
or anyone really.......
I went through two boyfriends in high school.....
neither of which ended very well....
I always credited it to the stupidity of being an adolescent and immaturity of being in highschool. But now I know that is wrong.....
now I know that it is because I love chaos
on to my husband......
well when we were dating I was on cloud nine....
when we were dating I don't think we had any problems....
wait... I take it back.... I got mad at him when he didn't walk
me to the door of the apartment after a date one night............
I wondered if I finally found a moment of peace in the life of chaos that I knew
(((and apparently loved)))
But no I in fact had not.... our marriage began in chaos... Chaos of getting married before our wedding.... so that we could get me tested for a serious sleeping disorder...... 10 points to anyone who can guess which one!!!!!!!!!
an thus goes the life.....
diagnosed with Narcolepsy w/ Cataplexy
found out we were expecting
death in B's family
actual wedding
dad diagnosed with parkinson's, death of an uncle in B's family, death of B's grandfather, fighting about anything and everything, sicknesses- mine and his, family dynamics>>> of the in-law rather out law nature, death of my father>> yes even that was a fight, second pregnancy, inability to continue working for my then employer
>>> due to...............
yes! you guessed it ......
..... narcolepsy!!!!!!
then of course having that precious second child, the first one starting school, the un- official and un-predictable aspect of working for yourself, a hail storm, my gosh I don't even want to type out any more things....
Let's just leave it be...
the point is, all in all my whole life has been chaos....
setting aside the sarcasm I oozed all over the top of this post I do end up wondering.... wondering what on earth I must be doing to attract the chaos. What choice do I have but to believe that something must be up with me in order to bring upon myself all of this nonsense...
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