Today I have a Sleep Doctor appointment.... You know I call him that but I honestly don't know if that's his title. Maybe I should find that out.
Last night was terrible.... Maybe I should back track. In May I had a Sleep Dr appointment where I finally got the clear to come back in 3 months versus the next month. This was huge for me. I was going every month and each time my Rx was increased. So May seemed to be alright and so did June. July hit and things began falling apart the whole month seems to be a blur in my mind....a blur of days, of dreams... Of life. I really had a tremendous amount of trouble, horrible dreams, and seemingly almost no sleep. I was mean and easily irritated - look I'm a woman this is SO hard to admit! I wasn't able to get my normal routine going which of course left me with piled dishes and piled laundry. August has been less rainy but overcoming that horrible month has been difficult and I still haven't caught up on my household responsibilities.
Now that I have finished the backtracking...
Today... Appointment..... I'm sort of nervous. I feel like in a way I'm becoming unhinged.... like maybe this super strong-or so I thought- foundation is beginning to crack. How do I describe all of this in a quantifiable way? Will my Dr get it or am I just crazy? Can I ever hope to be able to function on a semi normal level?
We will see.
Last night was terrible.... Maybe I should back track. In May I had a Sleep Dr appointment where I finally got the clear to come back in 3 months versus the next month. This was huge for me. I was going every month and each time my Rx was increased. So May seemed to be alright and so did June. July hit and things began falling apart the whole month seems to be a blur in my mind....a blur of days, of dreams... Of life. I really had a tremendous amount of trouble, horrible dreams, and seemingly almost no sleep. I was mean and easily irritated - look I'm a woman this is SO hard to admit! I wasn't able to get my normal routine going which of course left me with piled dishes and piled laundry. August has been less rainy but overcoming that horrible month has been difficult and I still haven't caught up on my household responsibilities.
Now that I have finished the backtracking...
Today... Appointment..... I'm sort of nervous. I feel like in a way I'm becoming unhinged.... like maybe this super strong-or so I thought- foundation is beginning to crack. How do I describe all of this in a quantifiable way? Will my Dr get it or am I just crazy? Can I ever hope to be able to function on a semi normal level?
We will see.
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