Well it's been quite some time. Last year was completely crappy. I think November and December might be just a dream, like they didn't actually happen. It sucks!
It made things so much harder than they already were and the best part!!!!! No one even really noticed or understood once they did. I missed payment on at least 6 bills but I a fairly certain it was more like 10.
I said it so many times before, I really want to do this everyday... to give someone- even if it is only my future self an honest open look into living with narcolepsy.........
But let's be honest, I can't even wake up everyday.
Literally, there are days that I sleep away because I can't get out of my dreams..... and dreams..... well maybe let's not go in that direction.
The doctors seems you have no clue what they're doing. The medication that's supposed to help, doesn't. And half the time they can't write the prescription correctly, which of course is just chaos and leaves me without medication for a period of time and it just snowballs from there.
It made things so much harder than they already were and the best part!!!!! No one even really noticed or understood once they did. I missed payment on at least 6 bills but I a fairly certain it was more like 10.
I said it so many times before, I really want to do this everyday... to give someone- even if it is only my future self an honest open look into living with narcolepsy.........
But let's be honest, I can't even wake up everyday.
Literally, there are days that I sleep away because I can't get out of my dreams..... and dreams..... well maybe let's not go in that direction.
The doctors seems you have no clue what they're doing. The medication that's supposed to help, doesn't. And half the time they can't write the prescription correctly, which of course is just chaos and leaves me without medication for a period of time and it just snowballs from there.
I tell ya.....I fully believe that no one has ever seen this side of me.... this negative... doom and gloom..... despairing..... frustrated...... and ((maybe even a little)) dying side. Unfortunately, I have learned to mask things.... I have learned to keep things just below the surface... this of course is not a good thing, but I do not as of yet have the tools to do away with it or in the least manage it....
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.....................................................................I suppose my brain needs a moment to recalibrate so it can then begin to jump from one thing to the next without the ability of most people to follow it. Sometimes it is super funny to go back and read these... I catch myself wanting to edit them or clarify them... but then I stop because what would you learn from a bunch of edited crap.
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